Today was blessedly free of any major health disaster thankfully! Unless you consider a lack of sleep a health disaster, which I suppose I do since I put zombies to shame when I haven't gotten a proper night's rest.
This morning I got into my car to find the gift of a beautiful feather on my windshield. Many little bird poos as well, but a delightful red cardinal feather pasted to the moisture on the glass, perhaps as an apology for using my car as a toilet. A quick nab and a few heavy duty windshield wipes later, and good as new and my little red friend joined me on the dashboard.
Work was work. Being a zombie perhaps didn't help. I'm not the coffee drinking sort though, and try hard not to resort to such things as a means of waking up. My last job had free coffee all the time, and I shamefully partook of such a service more often than I should have. But considering how my behavior after even just half a cup gives people the impression that I have some sort of drug problem, I think it's for the best that I don't slide back into the habit. I do wish that all work places had emergency napping stations though. And recess.
Back to Bangor to get some work done. I don't like the drive, in that it is very time consuming to go to and from work, and I worry about the cost of gas and the wear and tear on my car, etc., etc. But I do enjoy the time for slow contemplation of things. The pastures and trees put my mind into a peaceful, meditative ease. I find my mind wanders far and wide, on my commutes. Home, that is. To work I am usually too consumed with the day's tasks to consider anything else. I really ought to get back into my peaceful morning meditations!
Dinner with my man, brief because he had to work late. Exhaustion claimed me, I found myself face down on the bed. Up, waking up, shake it off and back to work. I find I am so easily wiped out, compared with others. My boyfriend said "but you're not them, so let it go". I remember how I used to stay up until 3 or 4 in the morning, in college. Now I'm lucky if I can make it past 11 pm. But, too, I can enjoy the gentle light of morning much better than I was ever able to before.
Pitch black outside right now, and time to wind down, methinks. There's never enough time in the day to get the things done that I want to get done. This shall be my lament for a while more, I think, until I get my feet under me once and for all. Ah, well. Oyasumi! (Good night!)
"a delightful red cardinal feather pasted to the moisture on the glass, perhaps as an apology for using my car as a toilet."
ReplyDeleteNicely put, interesting thing to note.
" do wish that all work places had emergency napping stations though. And recess."
Try working in early childhood education...?